New Year
Today is the new year, and Ruben’s 16th birthday. He is in Thailand, and I am in the house he was born in. I’m taking the time to sit and reflect on 2010 before I move into this year, which I suspect will bring a lot of change.
2010. It was a big one, and a lot different to the way that this year has started. We started it living in Perth, just the two of us, me battling severe depression. We’ve come through that to be here, living in QLD, a beautiful family of three, and not only blissfully happy, but content.
Nathan Ezekiel Toby White was obviously the highlight of the entire year. His birth was such a joyful time, and watching him grow fels like a privelage. He’s a quick baby, commando crawling at five months, crawling at 7 months. He’s 8 months now and always on the go. His grin and his cheekiness are absolutely infectious. Tim has been, and is, and incredible father. He does more with him and is more involve than I ever thought he would be. I probably don’t thank him enough.
Another major event was making the move back to supposedly Sunny Queensland (presently 60% of the state has been declared a disaster zone). Leaving Western Australia was a difficult decision and one that much deliberation went into. I love and miss many of my family and friends, and I hate missing the kids grow up. Since we’ve left two of our great friends have become engaged, so we will be trying as hard as possible to return for the weddings of Erin and Jun, and Helene and Matt. My heart still twists for them, the ones I left behind. Although I miss my friends and would love to see them again, I’m very glad to be in Blenheim. The change from the city has been a welcome breath of fresh air.
We are renting off a family friend which is a bizarre turn of events we only discovered after we moved in. We have 5 acres, which is home to our goat, Molly. A ram named Bertie, and lots of chooks. Tim is excited because we have baby chicks. The first thing he does of a morning is go and check that they’re all fed and okay. Our animal collection has built up because we take all of the unwanted animals. It’s good to be able to play with the animals with Nathan. He loves anything that moves. More to catch I suppose.
After three years of being on my learners, I finally bit the bullet and learnt how to drive. I passed my P’s first go and now I don’t have to drive anywhere! Tim transferred his uni to USQ in Toowoomba via Distance Education. He has just finished his first year, doing absolutely brilliantly. He received three high distinctions and one distinction. The best part is he is at home with me and Nathan. He hasn’t really missed a second of our son’s first year of life.
2010 was a big year for me emotionally. I dealt with a lot of past hurts and self perceptions and came to the end of a very painful time in my life. Seeing a good friend and hearing him acknowledge that I wasn’t a failure did a lot to correct my feelings about the last few years. I’m ready to move forward and I like myself again. But I’m proud to say that through it all, I REALLY loved God. I still do, and if that’s all that 2010 proved, I’m happy with that.
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